21 July 2017 @ 08:57 pm
Title: In The Garden(of memory)
Author: roxy
Pairings/Characters: Sam/Dean, OCs
Rating: R
Word Count:2707
Summary: Struck with a spell, Dean suffers memory loss, losing everything that makes Dean "Dean". Sam is at his side, working to break the spell, but soon begins to wonder, is that helping Dean or hurting him?
A/N Behold this, my failed BB of 2017. I came so close, but it was not to be. I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Posting this in many, bite-size chapters, because. No need to fear an endless WIP, as the story is basically finished; all the parts are there, they just need a little polishing. *she says, looking shifty-eyed*

In The Garden... )
 
 
 
21 July 2017 @ 01:30 pm
 
I'm thinking a lot about being left and leaving today. I've felt so low since my brother went home - lowness that is grief, Jan suggested, because whenever someone leaves for an extended period of time we grieve their absence. That I only get to see him once a year, and that those circumstances are not entirely of my creating compounds that. She reminded me that we do not expect a lot of people who are grieving when we clearly see the cause, and so I should not expect too much of myself while I'm working through all these feelings.

Having the feelings in the first place is a wondrous and hard-fought thing, and I'm keeping my eye on that as I process.

There's been a lot of left and leaving recently. Three people left their jobs at my place of work and left a vacuum that has still not been filled. Their leaving increased the amount of work on my plate to such a degree that when it's time for the creative part of my job I'm already depleted from the administrivia I'm doing, and my creativity feels forced and lacking. The hard conversations I had with colleagues last week happened while two of my closest local friends were away on vacation, so I felt their absence keenly, too. Then my brother. This all twists up with the bigger narratives of my life about leaving - especially about leaving England - in ways I haven't quite fully pinned down. But at least I see the patterns, or the patterns that my brain finds important, at least.

Leaving things has been my path to freedom. I wonder if, because that leaving was so big and important, I used up my share of goodwill where leaving is concerned, and now I just fear it. Lots to think about.
 
 
 
 
20 July 2017 @ 11:41 am
Lessons in Unsubtle Diplomacy
MCU | ~12,700 words | Steve/Peggy, AU | Thanks to [personal profile] sheafrotherdon and [personal profile] trinityofone for all their help with this. Written for [personal profile] thedeadparrot for the [tumblr.com profile] fandomtrumpshate auction, with thanks for her generosity and her patience.

(Read also on AO3)

Steve, Peggy, and a visit to an English country house after the war. What could possibly go wrong? )
 
 
 
19 July 2017 @ 07:36 am
 
My brother's visit last weekend was really lovely. We hung out, I took him to the outlet mall for jeans (501s, on sale, are about $80 in England right now. He got two pairs, plus a shirt and some boxers, for $116 here), we cooked together, we took a walk around the local lake, and we had a good time with friends. It was so much fun, and Monday I was horribly sad after I dropped him off at the airport. In the past I would have simply quashed those feelings instead of feeling them, but on Monday I kept thinking, "I am so sad," and told myself, "just feel it." It made for an uncomfortable day, but it was honest. There's something I can feel good about in that.

I got new glasses yesterday, and while my eyes are still adjusting some, they're pretty revolutionary for me. For the last two years my reading vision out of my right eye has been blurry - not because of my eye, but because of the lenses in my glasses. We replaced them three times last time and eventually they told me that was the best that they could do. It's made reading difficult and frustrating when it used to be a real joy. Now, with the new glasses, I can see to read again, and OH it is amazing. I keep looking at pages of books and the computer and noting that I can see and just reveling in it. Yay new glasses! (And yay for a FSA that made it possible.)

I have a bunch of deadlines at work coming up and I feel singularly uninterested in everything I have to do to meet them. I will meet them, but eh. Sometimes it's just not that satisfying. But that said we're about to enter a heat warning that will last until Saturday night - real temps of 95 and above, heat indexes into the 110s, so work will be delicious because it is air-conditioned, as opposed to my house which has floor units that at best keep things at about 80F. So I am prepared to find work much more interesting as of today so that I can soak up the cool.

I hope, wherever you are, you are not about to enter a heat warning, and that you can soak up some delicious cool wherever you are (or, if you're in the global south, you're not utterly miserable with cold!) ♥
 
 
 
 
17 July 2017 @ 09:20 pm
Would anyone be interested in betaing something for me? It's a Steve/Peggy AU, about 12,500 words, some canon-typical violence. I just want to be sure there are no egregious plot holes and that the voice/characterisation rings true.
 
 
* My neck was actually in good enough shape to use the computer for a half hour last night. I put some clips down! But oh noes, I put a feels clip down, and getting on with vidding instead of just watching that over and over again? Tough times.

* On the subject of vidding, Fall Equinox sign ups are open :D

* You can get the game Jotun for free on Steam atm. Don't know how long it's going to last, but it looks beautiful and you get to play a viking lady out to prove her worth to the Gods.



* The new Dr is a lady? GOOD STUFF. Now let's pray we don't get an annoying, white boy companion. I might actually have to start watching it. Meanwhile, I'll settle for watching the joy of my twitter timeline, interspersed with mockery of outright stupidity. I mean, ain't that a gem?

* Florida's Walt Disney World now has plans of adding a Star Wars-themed hotel. And they're going above and beyond. Employees will be in costume and in character at all times, you'll get an identity of your own (and I do believe costuming as well), and all the windows? Will show only outer space. (!!!)

Personally, I would like to petition for more hotels with outer space windows? Gimme a sparse, space-feeley room and THE UNIVERSE OUTSIDE MY WINDOW. Think about it, you don't even have to pay for a good view, as it'll be programmed into every single room ;D

* Note to self: RE-UP YOUR MOOD THEME BEFORE PHOTOBUCKET SWALLOWS IT WHOLE.
 
 
Current Music: The Head and the Heart - Cats and Dogs
 
 
I am back in the States and only mildly jetlagged, after a brief delay courtesy of the flooding of an air traffic control tower in Canada and the usual encounter with the incredibly rude US Border Patrol agents. (I understand that they're required to satisfy themselves that I'm not a nefarious criminal, and that it must be a tedious and repetitive job, but let me put it this way: whenever I walk up to the booth when entering Ireland or France and say "Hi, how are you"/"Bonjour, monsieur/madame", I get a response other than a grunt or silence. And that's the least of the issue.) It's always a little bit of a shock to the system to go from Ireland's milder summers and late-setting sun to North America's heat and earlier darkness, but so it goes.

Orphan Black, 5.06, Manacled Slim Wrists )

Spider-Man: Homecoming )
 
 
16 July 2017 @ 05:29 pm
*SCREAMS*

ETA: link

Will be coherent later, for now I'm just running around screaming. :D :D :D

ET again A: The clip is now up at the BBC website:

http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p058vj2q

*STILL SCREAMING*

Another edit - some quotes from Whittaker, Capaldi & Chibnall here:

http://www.bbc.co.uk/mediacentre/latestnews/2017/jodie-whittaker-13-doctor
http://variety.com/2017/tv/global/bbc-doctor-who-1202496884/

OMG OMG OMG
 
 
 
 
16 July 2017 @ 07:54 pm
 
angel(2), agents of shield(4), buffy(4), killjoys(2), lost girl(3), superstore(2), riverdale(3), legends of tomorrow(37), shadowhunters(1) and supernatural(1)



all here
 
 
16 July 2017 @ 04:44 pm



from challenges; [community profile] iconthat, [community profile] challengeme, and most from a legends of tomorrow battle - angel, agents of shield, buffy, killjoys, lost girl, superstore, riverdale, legends of tomorrow, shadowhunters and supernatural
all here )
 
 
16 July 2017 @ 09:37 am
So, at [community profile] vidukon_cardiff I had the immense pleasure of getting to vid alongside other vidders. It was 😍 and 🚀 and 😭. I hope everybody gets to experience this at some point, and with such a lovely and enthusiastic bunch as I got to share it with.

The way it worked was, we got split into groups of four, each given two memory sticks with six random movies and a timestamp to fill in the ever so epic Meatloaf song chosen by the brilliant [personal profile] brokenmnemonic. We all had a great time, and most people ended up sitting there through lunch, tinkering with their end of the timeline.

Then we all passed it off to [personal profile] lithiumdoll, completely unaware of what other people stuck in their bit, and she stitched it all together in time for us to watch it at the con. And a most serious time was had ;)

May I present to you fine folks: The Frankenvid! :DDDD
 
 
Current Mood: look at our communal baby!
 
 
 
15 July 2017 @ 10:12 am
 
This week has been a doozy. First came the workplace politics, where I discovered someone believes I have been bullying a close friend of mine into doing things she doesn't want to do. It's such an astonishing mis-read of the situation that I was actually rendered speechless when I heard, and not only is it a horrible thing to think about me, it's a horrible thing to think about my friend. I have no idea what has prompted this interpretation of events, except to say that last night I remembered that the person who believes this is firm and fast friends with a former supervisor of mine, who famously remarked in a work evaluation of me that I wasn't nice enough. (Which - what? And second - can you imagine a man ever getting that in an eval? Me either.) I have no idea if their friendship is at play in this, but the last time I was so fundamentally misunderstood was that eval. For whatever that's worth.

Learning this was unbelievably painful, especially as it has repercussions for the department in which I serve, and I spent a lot of this week feeling very low about it all.

And then there was a situation where I did every last thing right, and ended up without a reimbursement on Wednesday as I'd been promised, and so things bounced at the bank, and I ended up with fees, and then I ended up in a mad scramble to make sure my water wasn't turned off. And then there was the letter about a loan from my retirement account that has been declared in default, which means I will owe taxes on it next spring, despite the bankruptcy proceedings. *HANDS* As I remarked to Rachel, I am the opposite of King Midas. Everything I touch turns to NOT gold.

But! I started bouncing back from all this junk on Thursday, and then my brother arrived yesterday for a weekend visit. It's so fun to have him here, and it's so easy to hang out with him. Today we're headed to the farmer's market and an art pop-up market and to hopefully have lunch with some friends. The weather has miraculously agreed to stay fairly cool while he's here, too, which is nice, since the last two times he's visited it's been above 90 his whole stay. We can get out and about much more pleasantly now! I feel really lucky that we've remade a relationship as adults, and that we've both turned out as good, fun people despite the odds. It's not true for everyone's situation, and I will count myself lucky to have this good thing come out of the ashes of the old.

Off to find green beans and corn and flowers ♥
 
 
 
 
NPT reveals have happened! It was a very short anon period, alas, but now I can actually talk about this. It was my first time writing this fandom - and it's a for a show I've loved for a long time. I used to watch The Pretender on German TV, and read a lot of (English) fanfic on the old pretender.de archive back in 2001/02, checking it almost daily until it vanished. My fic reading dropped off after that, but I never stopped loving the show, and rewatching it - my last full rewatch was in 2015 - only reinforced that. (It holds up very well, in case you were wondering. ♥)

Writing it myself for the first time after all that time felt pretty strange, but in a good way. :)

Title: Set Us Free
Pairing: Miss Parker/Jarod
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Jarod should be used to people being unworthy of trust, but some things hit closer to home than others. - Miss Parker knows how it goes when Jarod calls her in the middle of the night, but some calls are stranger than others.
A/N: This story refers to events from episode 3.04, Someone to Trust, in which Jarod gets himself hired as an arsonist and becomes close to his boss's seemingly-innocent wife. But Kristi isn't what she seems, and Jarod finds himself in trouble. Don't worry if you don't remember the episode well (or at all) - everything in the story should be clear from context.
Written for [personal profile] the_rck as part of Not Primetime 2017.

Originally posted here at AO3.

Set Us Free )
 
 
 
 
10 Elizabeth Weir (Stargate Atlantis) Icons



Here @ [community profile] the_holodeck
 
 
14 July 2017 @ 08:20 pm
It's almost time for the Thirteenth Doctor! Announcement on Sunday!

In 2008/09, when Eleven was cast, I had very definite opinons about who I wanted it to be, and was disappointed both that it wasn't Paterson Joseph, and that it turned out to be a VERY young white bloke. (Also, OMG I hated that leather jacket look - so offputting.)

In 2013, when Twelve was cast, I didn't have specific preferences but hoped for someone who wasn't a young white bloke, and at least got one out of three.

This time? Especially after all the groundwork Moffat has been laying, if it's not a woman this time I'm going to be disappointed. If it's a white man I'm going to be disappointed and angry. And if it's Kris Marshall as has been rumoured, I'm going to be furious and will probably not watch series 11 live.

I haven't really been following the rumour mill, but I've read enough to know that unlike last time, this time round rumours about female candidates have been treated seriously by all involved, which is great. But if they don't do it this time, they'll have lost the last chance to make it mean something other than a tired old "well, better late than never, I suppose."

Cross all your fingers for Thirteen!
 
 
 
 
14 July 2017 @ 06:28 pm
(50) Xena: Warrior Princess
→ Callisto

Previews;


OVER HERE at [community profile] megascopes


(35) Roswell
→ Maria DeLuca

Previews;


OVER HERE at [community profile] megascopes
 
 
14 July 2017 @ 05:12 pm
So. Managed to completely fuck up my neck by, ah, sleeping. Yeah. And I woke up to pee two hours before my alarm as well, and my neck was fine then. First time this has happened to me, and it is no fun.

Actually anti-fun to try and use my laptop right now, bah. Ow. Whine.

Wanting to make a post for days and days, like about how I'm watching Xena now. Or how VidUKon got me to relax and love vidding again with our bonkers fun-times collab, so now I'm also making an overly-literal Xena vidlet. #Funsies

Or about GLOW, which I finished right before starting work again. Or my trip to London/VidUKon and the awesome people thereabouts. Some articles and such I've stumbled across on twitter. How I'm going to be an aunt in not too long.

But, ow. So, here's some icons I posted, bye!

01-10 glow
11-15 wonder woman
16-20 xena
21-24 supergirl
25-28 misc




H E R E
 
 
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